Becoming clean can represent a multitude of new beginnings in life, but there is one life experience with which most of us can relate: cleansing ourselves of toxic people in our lives. Some of these are past friendships, but most of them deal with overcoming a breakup with someone who we once relied on and trusted. Some of us most likely even believed these people would never leave us, but then, one day, they did.
Out of nowhere, this person slid out of your life either quietly or with a rough goodbye. Maybe you got something as small as a text message or a phone call, or maybe you were lucky enough to have your finale completed in person, but is the latter really even considered lucky? Isn’t it all just one big sucky situation? There is no easy way to say goodbye to someone who you once loved.
Eventually, you stop looking at past pictures. You stop rereading past text messages and listening to past voicemails. You stop thinking about past conversations. Altogether, you stop revisiting the past. Perhaps, it all seems as though it was a distant dream. Then, one day, you remember more good memories than bad, and you realize the bitter feelings you once dealt with everyday are no longer present.
Eventually, you realize you haven’t thought about this person in days, weeks, or maybe even months. It might hit you as you’re listening to a certain song in the car or you pass him/her as you’re driving down the road. Either way, you realize how you did in fact endure an emotional cleanse. All you have now are distant memories, and you choose to leave them in the past where they belong.
Eventually, you’ll start dating someone new. You’ll realize how welcoming it is to find someone who treats you like never before. Now, you realize why it didn’t work with others in the past. You tried so desperately to cling on to someone who couldn’t give you what you deserved because you were clinging on to the wrong someone.
Instead, you should have spent your time enjoying yourself because then you would realize the right person would come along when you weren’t even looking. He found you with open arms because he knows how beautiful you are when you’re lost in a daze or you’re trying to quote your favorite movie. He knows how beautiful you are when you aren’t wearing any makeup or when he sees you experience your most embarrassing moment right in front of him. He probably makes you laugh more than anyone in the past ever had because you now know your worth, and you aren’t afraid to show him your most raw forms.
Eventually, you realize you can be yourself. When you’re being yourself, you find someone who unknowingly makes you want to be a better person. You find yourself laughing more, breathing deeper, making bigger bucket lists, and eating more ice cream.
Eventually, you realize you had to endure your cleanse in order to be stripped of the toxins overflowing your mind and body. Without the toxins, you can now live your life purely and freely.
Lauren is a Ball State University alumna with a Bachelor's degree in English and a concentration in Creative Writing. She enjoys breakfast for dinner with a side of literary enjoyment.