If you asked me to describe myself, I’d probably start off by telling you about how I make most situations awkward because I never know what to say. That would be the forewarning for everything I’m about to tell you. Then I could tell you that I am fairly certain I am addicted to Grey’s Anatomy even though medical situations make me want to pass out. I could tell you I’ve made the Dean’s List. I could tell you I have been working at the same job for two years, and I love it. I could even tell you I’ve been out of the country. What I could also tell you, though, is I haven’t even put a dent into everything I want to do with my life. You could say I might be having a quarter-life crisis.
What if I never smell the mahogany wood of a gondola in Italy? What if I never ride a double-decker bus and traipse around the streets of London? What if I never do all of the things I want to do?
I love where I am in life so don’t get me wrong. I love the people in my life, and I am thankful for never having to undergo a traumatic experience; however, I simply cannot settle for just okay.
Every day, I thrive to gain something new out of life. I breathe in the crisp air, greet everyone I meet, participate in my classes, and I try to do everything I can to be a successful college student. Some of my classes are enjoyable, and they don’t even feel like college classes because I get excited to go to my lectures and learn something I didn’t know the day before. Will they help me achieve everything I want to achieve, though?
Maybe that’s a good part of life, though: never settling. If you never settle, then you never succumb into the pitiful ways of simply being okay with your life. If you never settle, then you set goals and you do everything you can to keep on moving one step forward, taking every ridge in the mountain with a grasp of confidence, and you keep on climbing that mountain until you reach the top. Then, once you reach the top, you look in front of you only to realize you have another mountain, another feat, another goal to overcome. Each step forward helps you form your personality and character, and you learn whom you should be or where you should go.
Put this into perspective with your own life: improving your grade in a class by an entire letter grade, getting a job promotion, learning something new, picking up a new hobby, finishing that song you told yourself you were never going to be able to finish, dating until you find the right person, beating your PR in the gym.
Maybe the feeling of never being able to settle is actually beneficial to us. By never settling, we develop new ways of thinking and we’re able to see sides of ourselves we’ve never released. Perhaps, by never settling, we keep moving and pushing ourselves until we finally figure out where we’re supposed to be.
You’re the only one who knows me
Tripping over words, stumbling over feet
Or you can flip those around
Then you can laugh at me for the words I say
Oh, but if this is a dream
Don’t wake me up
Take what you want – I’ll take you
I’d pick you first in gym class and wherever we are
From the deserts to the islands in the sea
You’re my favorite type of coffee
But you don’t need sugar because you’re already sweet
Well we’ve all had our monsters
Our demons and treasures
But if you promise to lighten my dark
I’ll promise to be where you are
I’ll wake you up when it’s all over
Come find me and we’ll turn over
A new page, a new chapter
Full of dreams and sweet laughter
Because I’d pick you
Lauren is a Ball State University alumna with a Bachelor's degree in English and a concentration in Creative Writing. She enjoys breakfast for dinner with a side of literary enjoyment.